Tuesday, March 24, 2009

It Is What It Is (redone)

I am a Triathlete...That's My Thing, It's What I Do. I am currently on a road I do not recognize, a road that leads me to different and unusual places. I am not training triathlon as has been my previous life, which leaves me a lot of time for other things. Things, that lead me to get myself in to trouble. ha ha Jk.Aside from having time to train in mixed martial arts, which is going phenomally by the way, I had a lot of time to think things over...and enter into a subsequent "quarter life crisis."

Without the focused path to maintain and the volume of training to drain my body's energy has forced me to find other ways to pass the time.When minds are idle trouble usually follows. I cook up fantastic "what if" scenarios when my mind is idle. One day I was sitting watching TV thinking WTF am I doing?!

I didn't have an answer, an answer that should be answered with training, however not with a hurt ITB. I'm not the type of person that lives "in between." If I am in training, I am in training, period. I am not in training so I decided for this short spurt that I wasn't going to live parts of my life as if I were. Which led me to the realization of my "quarter life crisis."

So now I sit typing asking myself "what's the point of this post, and what have I gotten out of my recent activities?"*** Without triathlon and the "pain of sacrifice" I am completely unfulfilled, more so than I ever have been. ***The late nights, TV, lounging, and lack of training are, for all intents and purposes, the "worthless time wasters" that I've maintained they are for years.

BUT...positives have come from this, I have spent time with my friends, Jess I love you to death and have enjoyed spending time with you, and for the record I may be in a "bromance" with a former enemy turned ally/wingman. I have met some very fun friends in which I hope to continue to see.

It has been great spending time with everyone and not planning a damn thing. I want to stay up late tonight...great do it! I feel like watching a movie with so so...do it, no early morning ride! So that has been nice.Most of all I see the beauty in the path, I am usually on, is what constitutes living. The path of being a triathlete and focused person has its fair share of "pain of sacrifice," but I love that pain because it leads to making me a better person.

The typical life described above of is great if that is your thing, do what you want to, I have no knock on it if you enjoy it, but, for me, it only leads to the "pain of regret." Regret of time, effort, and opportunity wasted on an unhealthy unsustainable way of living. Late nights take a toll on your body, thus not sustainable, you get it. Training makes your body better every minute you pursue it, it has definite measurements, and a definitive goal, races etc.... LEAD IN TO NEXT POST>>>